Lately I've noticed throughout the school and my friends and peers have been going on diets for various reasons. "I want to be this weight because it'll make me skinny" So many girls have the wrong idea about what they should look and feel like. They let numbers run their lives. Having goal weights and sizes have become and obsession.
It's not wrong, but it could be hurting you without even knowing it. I know I've mentioned it before about how I restricted myself to the extreme for a few years. (See: Failure and Restricting) Then I just grew out of it. I realized it doesn't matter how many calories I burn running or how much I weigh because being a set weight will not guarantee your "dream body". It's about looking good in the mirror and being happy with yourself. Looking back now, I realized how stupid I was for being so obsessed. I took it way too far and it was awful. I never want anyone to ever go through what I did. I was so obsessive that I'd do cardio for HOURS at a time just to get my weight down to my "goal". I would manipulate water intake, I would work out 3 times per day. It was so overboard I'm ashamed to even write this (but I know it could help someone in the future) If I met my self from the past I'd probably slap her. It was so ridiculous.
One day, it just clicked for me .I'm almost 7 months from my worst point now completely recovered. I work out when I feel like it (5 or 6 days a week usually) and I do things in moderation. I forgot about cardio for a few months. I focused on getting strong. I lift a lot more now and I do it seriously. 3 sets of 10 reps won't lead to success so I really changed my plans. I don't look at scales anymore. I judge myself much differently now. I don't need sizes and numbers to tell me if I'm fit enough or good enough. I'm not afraid of food. I'm not constantly cold anymore and I'm not too concerned about numbers. My mom said I seem more "confident" and I guess I can agree, maybe it just goes along with the mental maturity and mentality of not being so fragile and afraid. I've come a long way in just a few months and I feel that it's really important for girls to understand that life is not about being a size 0. There is a fine line between healthy and extreme. High School Health Freak crossed that one for too long. Luckily I've found myself in a better place and I couldn't be more happy with myself now. (462)
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